"I hate the chronic feeling of emptiness, which people with BPD have. I’m so bored. I don’t know what to do and I also don’t wanna do anything. It makes me so confused. I’m crying, but not because I’m feeling sad, it’s because I’m feeling so empty."
An empty feeling Borderline (via another-girl-interruptedx)

I’ve not been here for a while - struggling with safety again. I did start using my wordpress again but then idk what happened & I stopped again.

I dunno… it’s a normal symptom of a decline in my MH which is kind of funny because it’s when I need my blogs etc the most that I withdraw.

Anyway… lots has happened in my system, a lot has happened with my physical health (in short it’s declined and it sucks) but nothing has happened with my MH in terms of receiving support - I’ve not seen a T in about 2 months despite them promising in the terms of my complaint  resolution to see me weekly for a year. 

I don’t want to go into it now. On the bright side, I have new animals in my life! yay!

Still not been to sleep - it’s now 3:20pm -_- 12 hours since I had my bath to try and help me sleep.

meh.

onetwentyninenine:

martaprior:

Blackberries doing yoga.

i’m obsessed with these

onetwentyninenine:

martaprior:

Blackberries doing yoga.

i’m obsessed with these

The bath helped a bit but I fell asleep so I got cold which made my legs start to hurt. Meh. No winning.

I’ve just taken some additional painkillers tho and I’m going to try and fall asleep so I can at least have a little rest before the pain returns.

It’s 3am but I’m running myself a bath because I’m in so much pain that my vision is starting to go funny around the edges.

I’ve been in a lot of pain since last night - I did manage to sleep buy only very light broken sleep and by today I was writhing in agony.

I genuinely don’t know what to do after this point. It hurts so much that this bath is my last option. I don’t know what I’ll do if it doesn’t work to ease it somewhat.

homicidalicecream:

Three years ago, we adopted two doggies - one of whom would never give kisses, had PTSD and was aggressive out of fear. This is him today. The King of my heart and my best friend. I’ve never known love like it and I wouldn’t give him up for the world. 

I love my Marley Moo. #mooandroo #dogsofinstagram #dogs #bestfriend #rescueanimals #adoptionanniversary

It’s our anniversary with our doggies.

homicidalicecream:

Three years ago, we adopted two doggies - one of whom would never give kisses, had PTSD and was aggressive out of fear. This is him today. The King of my heart and my best friend. I’ve never known love like it and I wouldn’t give him up for the world.

I love my Marley Moo. #mooandroo #dogsofinstagram #dogs #bestfriend #rescueanimals #adoptionanniversary

It’s our anniversary with our doggies.